needed some air of release..

i'm so tired..also don noe why..juzt tired..feel so draggy..so many things to do..man..don like myself to be in this state..everyth is chaotic..so tired..don wanna do anyth..don wanna go anywhere..juz wanna rest..just wanna rest..hav my own time do my own things..

good habits are so difficult to form..sometimes i do feel so discourage..so wish someone can understand me..so wish someone can comfort me wen i said i'm tired..juz needed some words of encouragement..tell me i'm doing ok..tell me i'm doing fine,.tel me i can do it..tell me i can wen i feel i cant..

juz needed a little comfort a little strength..

think i need my element of living..my oxygen..think i reali need to protect my quiet time with God..as each day passed in the week, i get so tired..need a little strength to sustain my work..

such irony..i always tell my studs, "the day you decided to study in tis sch, you alrdy noe you need to travel so no excuse for being late or saying you live far.."

sup i could hav been more encouraging as i'm in similar situation..

the day i decided i need to work extra, i would hav to sacrifice my time for other things..

perhaps a litle frustrated wen i cant spend time w alan..so wish our timing can fit nicely..

sup to go cg on thurs so my fri can be free to meet him..but coz my tuition cant get replacement in time therefore i had to work, fri had to go cg , sat morn hav to train, sat afternoon hav to serve, sat night hav to serve so wat..not much time left again..kinda blame myself., if i had rem to inform my fren abt gettin replacement perhaps i wont feel so frust..haiz..angry with myself? perhaps..

den come sun, slept till late, left a few hrs in the noon together b4 dina w his family den he book in again..man..

wat a routine..tired of routine..time..
time is so scarce..so precious..i'm so irritated..so tired..

God it's so difficult to stay focus..so much knowledge but reali need comfort in my heart..sat's trg again..been skipping trg a bit here n there..trying not to train so hard so i don get so tired..

don noe wat's wrong with me..can i don go cg..i juz wanna rest..so tempted ot rest yet obligation works its way thru me again..

gotta break news to alan again tt i cant meet him..man if i'm my boyfriend..think i'll get qt angry..always changing plans..

this is so frust to the extent i don even feel lik arranging to meet him..wat's trhe point..it is always subjected to changes..

i need some stability..i juz wanna some consistency for myself..

why do i always have to change our dates..tired..

is there something wrong with me..think so..mayb if i'm a little discipline with my time things could have been beta..man

my head is reminding my wat i learnt in cg..positive self talk is important..seems lik i'm not doing so..it seems difficult..

feel lik i'm responsible..responsible for wat is happening..

i juz wanna get my life in place again..helppppp God..

time..time..time..i don wan to do anyth anymore......

change is the only constant in life...i hate but i wan..

need a little strength..

strength..hang on..hang on..dying dying..life life..

cool..zzzzzzzzz..

anyone bothers anyone cares?

obligations..so many..my heart needs a little lift..help..anyone..no one..cool..