God is faithful and good..i have a good end for 2007

been wanting to blog for a long while esp aft i came back from Chongqing..

i think i am reali very blessed and God is indeed a Faithful and Good God to me despite my faults and weaknesses..He has granted me the desires of my heart that i can boldly say that yr 2007 is a good year for me..

I have a few desires that is fulfilled in a miraculous way i would say.

1st i went for a mission trip in 2007 that i said i wanna to go after i came back from HK in yr 2006.

Think a few people knew that i almost couldn't go for the Chongqing trip coz i thot i could not afford it..was reali tight financially.
Praise God, the trip was paid for and i was able to go..the trip was fruitful, it was definitely heartening to see how the kids spelled so well wen they were given difficult words. I also saw their perseverance despite not being able to spell, they stood on the stage till the time is up, fighting to the last sec trying to spell the word, they were reali very brave.All kids reali put in much time n efforts for the competition..

from the trip i saw that everyone is reali gifted and each's expertise in different area reali helped to make the whole event a great success..initially i felt bad to "arrow" shu hui to do certain things but bcoz she was on stage doing some task i was able to "lead" the crowd to wave wen a finale song was sang..think i felt i was in a position that i could perform beta..ha..thou i felt bad but i think it was beta that i lead the crowd den clicking the translated lyrics to an english song (shu hui was given the arrow in That finals' morn..ha)..

think bcoz i was free fr tt ppt clicking task i was able to conduct interview with the students n wat they said reali inspired..i rem the p6 champ said it's bcoz she believes in herslef and she reali worked hard that she was able to get champ..i could reali see in her eyes the focus and determination to win..act to be honest she looked such an averg student yet she reali emerged as champ coz of her belief, her confidence,determination n focus..she is an inspiration to me coz an averg can become extraordinary wen you believe..right then i understood wat bible says accoring to our faith it shall be done..God's word is true..Faith makes things possible.

my 2nd desire is alwys to be able to serve God in a ministry..ha.. that was fulfilled in an unusual timing i would say.. i always wonder God why do you let me serve You in a time that i felt i was not strong..Think lik wat deanna told me b4, promotion always come in a time wen we least expected it..wen i felt spiritually strong,i was made to wait..wen i felt weak, i was given the chance to serve..

Thank God i'm now a greeter, God reali humbled me and i felt privileged in many contacts i made with the new people..a few impressionable ones are a couple who never come to church b4, i was the 1st contact to them to get them seats, i hop i can help them find a cg..anoth lady she looked close up but end up she was open to joining a cg wen i asked her abt it.. i was so pleasantly surprised..it was 24th dec, mon evening svc i rem..ha..

3rd wish was granted wen i heard that my cg is going to be under bro darren..man i felt lik heaven over my life..new start for myself..hopfully dear will join bro darren and lik him lik how he likes justin coz i noe darren is reali a very good leader..a different kind fr bro chris..

think i told a few people that facing bro chris was always sth i struggled for the past few weeks or mths to say..i felt was so bad that every fri b4 gg cg i would ask myself, "muz i go?"

think i always felt guilty that i kinda betrayed their trust n bcoz of tt, i din even dare to talk much to jaz which reali saddens me a lot..

but the thot of being in darren's cg filled my heart and mind with hopes that things will get beta..i will get stronger in my spiritual walk..

act i even visualise myself getting stronger, rising up to serve God in a greater manner, in cg and in greeters' ministry..ha..den on the oth hand i am also concerned abt my relationship with alan..

to be honest my desire for yr 2008 is that alan will join and grow in the cg under darren..i can imagine that dear will be such a strong man of God wen he allows himself to get rooted in a cg, esp under darren's leadership..

juz now read alan's blog, if he likes Pst Tan, i believe he will like darren if he has given himself that chance and time to experience wat a cg is like..think bcoz of my many yrs in church these are the things i hop to see for alan..yet as i'm writing this i knew in my heart that it is not my will nor thoughts to change alan but God' Higher ways and thoughts, God's timing is definitely so much better than mine..coz He knows what's good..He's a cool God..hahaha..
Only God can change a man's heart,no one else can..

So i'm believing strongly in my heart that yr 2008 is going to be the best year yet for my life..i believe it is going to be good coz i am convicted by yest svc wen Pst Tan said "Repent" = Return to the Highest level of thinking => Return to God's thoughts cos God's thought are higher than ours..

in this yr 2008,

1st,I wan to walk closer with God everyday coz yest wen i was worshipping in svc, i felt touched in my heart that even times wen i was making mistakes, Jesus was still with me..He had never left me n i felt very touched..bcoz of Jesus still being with me wen i sinned agst Him, i wanna to walk with Him closer in this 2008..

2nd, i pray that i will grow to love the Word of God, to be a woman of God's word..so cool..to be so fully occupied and transformed by the word of God..it's going to be so awesome..

There are so many changes i wanna make..i pray that God's grace will sustain me in continuing to make the decisions, be dedicated and be disciplined to make the changes i needed to make to become a better person in God..to become the woman that God had intended for me to become..

In Jesus' name, let it be done..Amen!