Patience

felt happy that we ran at ECP at 00:00hrs..haha..it's the timing when we ran that i am so amazed and the dist that we clocked that i felt happy abt..

tml is ahm..hop to do a good timing..

think lesson of the week would be patience..coz mon was down with flu..man..i rarely fall sick but past 2 weeks kinda weak..

this week is a weak week for me in a sense..mon flu, tues slightly beta, thot wed can run den 05:50hrs, red star award come..wed after morn lesson, felt unwell..went hm to zzz..man the earliest time i ever leav sch..12.30pm..gosh..think my attitude twds sch has slacken much..

everything anyhow..anything lo..haiz..gotta pick up again daphne..cant stay slack for long..

had been thinking a bit abt staying in sch to teach..or do i wanna ciao? hmmmm..yest told vincent abt it..he said sth that realiset me thinking..m i monkey see monkey do? izit coz my frens are ciao-ing that i wan to ciao too? hmmm..wat's the good reasons for me to leave? can i tahan till my 2 yr contract ends? do i wan a new jod..haiz..

hadn't reali pray thou i noe i need to..mayb wan to tak things my way. do it my way that i don wanna depend God..hmmm..God..who are you to me? how important are you to me?

help me to walk close with You once more..let me not deviate too far from you..i need You..need your wisdom..

is this the right or good time to ciao..do i wan ciao coz syst reali yucky or coz i'm finding excuses..m i too lazy to work or sch reali ain't worth my efforts..haiz..

attitude attitude attitude..only i can change my attitude..

i love my life..i need life..i need to feel useful..i need to feel i am useful..passion..wat's my passion?

life..wat's life? everyth anyth can be so vulnerable..muz i run this race..

God, make me to be a woman of breakthroughs..i need breakthroughs..i'm dying on the inside in certain parts..i need life man..

i need to pray and read God's word again isn't it..i need to get simple with God again..

God i miss You..help me to spend simple time with You..help me to be softhearted again..let me not have things my way i pray coz i will destroy myself i think..

Focus..daphne..keep running..keep walking with Jesus.."Saba" = Patience..patience with yourself..keep making changes..good changes that will make your life beta..
God, turn my heart towars You..

a woman after Your heart i pray...