God sees me as the Head and not the tail.

Wow..haha..been a long tim since i blog..hmmm..wonder how many still read..haha..but doesn't matter..

been reading Joyce Meyer's book on approval addiction..one of the chpt i on loving myself..gosh..good topic..

love myself..accept myself..being at peace with myself..building a relationship with myself..this are reali efforts i gotta make..

think it's so irony..to say i love myself it's not that true coz there are many things i reali don like abt myself..esp my weaknesses..my past..man..

to say i hate myself, not that true either coz i do like myself a lot when i buy ths..a lot of shopping for myself..ha..

past 2 days, read the book and also went thru some experiences..reali make me think..i reali hate weaknesses..i hate being or feeling weak,being seen weak is the worst..i agree w wat Joyce Meyer said..look tough on the outside yet many times very afraid on the inside..

that's me..sometimes i wonder how on earth can i be so proud yet insecure at the same time? ha..

tdy finally went to pray a little longer..told God some stuff..den on my way to sch felt God impress this into my heart when i was thinking how successful i'm gg to be this time round of loving and accepting myself..

den this thot came..God sees me as the HEAD and not the tail..

i think God is very confident that i will succeed in Him, in loving and accepting myself..

i reali have many weaknesses..to accept them is reali a huge effort on my part coz i so hate to be weak..

irony..i want to be broken yet the process of being broken can be reali painful which makes me unwilling to a certain extent..hmmm..

God break me i pray..You see me as the HEAD and not the tail..help me to remember well Holy Spirit!

Amen!!!

*daphne i love and accept you for who you are..i see you as God sees you..
God sees me as the HEAD and not that tail..Live victoriously..