3rd May—Emerge FOR 10km

This morn my mind was flooded with loads of thots on 10km..think I am reali gan cheong..feel that I din train hard enuf and stuff..like I’m not fast..thinking abt my potential opponent (my fren)..like flooded with so much thots..

When I 1st woke up, I pray a little..felt motivated by Alan to read the bible..why coz he had been reading the bible every now and then when he can..i feel ashamed man..think I have taken God and His word for granted..i need to build my relationship with God, I want to hunger for God’s word the way alan hungers for His word now..well..of coz he din say he hunger but his actions have shown the hunger..i rem he told me last night that he gets drawn to want read the bible..man..that is desire and hunger..keep reading and keep being drawn by the word of God..i want that too..Am I willing to pay the price of time? Am I ? ..I am..I am willing..

Jus now in train, was standing and reading the bible..reading thru psalms..searching 4 that verse..was flippling thru the pages..ha..Yes! so happy..i found it! Psalm 42:7..deep calls unto deep…think as I write now..everyth seems to sound light but I was reali in deep thots..my race..10km..my race..10km..

I reali want to thank God coz I reali think He is so good to me despite my weakness in so many areas..juz now as I was reading the verse repeatedly..deep calls unto deep..den this song juz came in so naturally..a song that sometimes I could sing casually without feeling the meaning of the song.. ( coz sometimes cant feel for God..think that’s the time when I tak God 4granted)..

So here’s the song common yet so meaningful to me once again..reminding me of God’s goodness and love for me..

When my world was in darkness,
You spoke Your words and
Night turned into Day
Your beauty fills this place.

When my world stood in silence,
You filled my heart with songs that never ends
Forever I will praise.

To think that the universal
Could not withhold Your Glory
You chose to live in me
I’m so amazed

And I worship You Lord
My life in You restored
Here is my heart
Make it Your sanctuary
For nobody else but Jesus
Only You..

Sometimes I wonder, how many people reali look at the song lyrics that people post on their blog..think I will now appreciate song lyrics posted in peoples’ blog coz sometimes the lyrics reali expresses what that person is feeling..like how this song above reminded me of God’s gracious saving hand from my many messed up situationSSss..

i’m a snatched-back kid in God man..without Jesus, my friends now will not know me as I am..perhaps we will neva meet in the 1st place..hmmm…butterfly effect..Thank You Jesus for Your unfailing love for daph!

Wait..side tracked too much..so..wat’s the obj of tis posting? (sounds familiar..ha)

Wat I wanna say is “God, I want to run this sat’s 10km for You..You are the reason why I run..You are the one who even enabled me to Run..I am the Head and not the tail.”

Thou I may be afraid but God..i am a runner in You..there may be other better and faster runner than me..but I don care..at this point of time, I just want to run the best that I know how in You, For You..

God, I pray once again..no stitch..no muscles cramps..let it be the best race yet for my life..for You..Focus..God..Focus..My Jesus..

Daphne, remember..I am a runner.. I run my own race..no one can run for me..this is my race..this is my race..run free..run free..run free..freedom is why I like running..i feel free..i feel I am me..this is my race..this is my time..i want to break 59min..Target 45mins sounds every positive..challenging in fact..can i? why not? No harm aiming..at least I dare to aim..haha..i feel so happy now..challenging..but I like..i like to be provoked..i like to be challenged..highly competitive ENTP..i believe so..but daphne..stay cool..remember your reason to run..For Jesus..45mins..i’ll try..i will run hard..

*I am Willing to run the race..i am willing to run the 10km..For Jesus for daph..