2nd May--Jumbled thots--juz wanna b disorganised 4awhile

----Moral integrity..

A term that i learnt from alan..ha..think being with him is reali like a mutual culture exchange btw and for both of us..indeed I’ve learnt many things from him..haha..i always feel very good wheneva he praise me saying that I have improved loads (ha..coz I’ve learnt how to spoof him..haha)..haha..ego food man..but he’s even more ego to steal my ego food by saying he’s of an advance level..man..who define his standards?
Who judge him? Haha..who? no one else but he himself lo..mayb I should stop listening to his words and start seeing his actions..haha..

But present status, he has neva failed to impress me..he always exceeded my expectations in almost all manner..he’s an A grader man..ha..hmmm..sounds positive or sound familiar? Ha..

Wait..main idea abt moral integrity.think these 2 words are getting into me..very good reminder for me to set a standard for my living..moral integrity..i want to do what is right..this is esp crucial in the phy part..told alan b4..i gotta watch out if I wan to go far with him..

“Time” is the evidence of my confidence..i WANT to do what is right..coz only when I noe I can do what is right I am confident of doing what I said..i flopped many times in the past..i flopped so many times that I reali want to do what is right.. that’s why 2 months sounds positive..very positive..

yest, I did sth..did sth that I think I can be so potentially wrong..dangerous..i wouldn’t want to do it again..if I want to help someone become a righteous man..i gotta watcha..gotta control for his sake..for his sake..daphne, control k..for his sake..for us.."US"..sounds very very positive..

----4 "A"s for successful marriage (think applicable 4 all relationships)

Acceptance-to accept your partner for who he is and expect no change at all at anytime..able to do that? acceptance..only when we understand that each person has their own life to live, own decisions to make and that our expectations should not be "enforced" on them..think tis is difficult coz people (moi esp) can be over-controlling, over-caring and even overly-helpful.

It's amazing, sometimes we simply need to recognise that people juz needed to tak longer time or tak the tougher road to grow up and mature..daphne, mature..mature in ur emots yea..

Let me/us not tak the role of Holy Spirit to change people..we ain't God, we cant change people..so don expect people to change much..Only Jesus can change our hearts..Amen!
O, think when we keep thinking abt Acceptance, our patience and understanding to our partner’s weaknesses will be greater..we will learn to love as God loves us..unconditional love..but of course, when you love, you will love your partner too much to see him staying the same..so let’s communicate changes and help in loving ways..

Appreciation-Appreciation is like a magnifying glass.. It made you see the goodness in your partner and enhance it when you tell them.. it magnifies people’s strengths.. people need to know, need to hear and need to feel how much you value what they do for you..learn to give generous sincere praise, and you will simply just keep winning your partner to you..keep falling DIL(deeply in love) with ya..haha..

Affection-Sometimes people just need that physical touch.. “Embrace” is a nice and meaning word and gesture to show love to your love ones..sometimes juz a hug hug supercedes words..hug hug is so amazing..it can be the most comforting “words” in physical form..i love it loads..nice and warm..comforting..but most importantly, I feel protected..protection is vital for gals..extremely vital..why? security ma..which gal doesn’t want to feel loved and protected..sometimes gals are so deprived of it that they can be like so man..coz if no man will protect them, they will protect themselves..natural instinct..natural defence..that’s y when we speak to certain gals, it seems difficult to talk to them..perhaps they reali juz need a little love..a little hug..

This reminds me of wat hap yest(1st May) ..1 sis act talked and shared with me certain stuff..i reali feel very privileged..honoured that she shared with me qt a bit..i couldn’t do much but I gave her a few hugz..hop that gave her some comfort thou..thru this incident, I felt the joy of serving God..

indeed, serving God is simply loving people..daphne jiayou..to love people is a way to serving God..

We love because He first loved us—1 John 4:9

Attention-sometimes over a long period of time people might cease to give as much attention as they used to give..To keep the relationship fresh, we need to constantly give undivided attention to our partner..i always believe if we value a person, we will give undivided attention..i appreciate people when they give me undivided attention..it made me feel very valued..mayb coz I’m a quality time person (primary love language)..so likewise this will lead to my point of communication.

I feel that communication btw couples or even friends is so important..only when we speak out our thots there wouldn’t be so much miscom ard..i reali hate miscom..the most unnec and dumb thing to destroy a relationship..i always believ, let’s reason things out..let’s clear things right then..i don like to delay..delay sometimes make things worst..but let's reason in loving manner for beta changes to take place..

*Communication—key to life..2change 2my defn: Loving communication is the key to life..

----One word—Deep

If there is 1 word i want to remember for present period..i will want to remember the word "Deep"..

i want to go deep..deep with my Jesus..deep calls unto deep Psa 47:2 (I think)

I want to be deep in my reflection..deep in depth..deep in my personality..

I want to be a deep woman..deep..deep..deep..not to the extent that I’m difficult to understand but deep that people’s lives will be changed by my personality..hmmm..m I making sense?

God..i want to go deeper in love with You..how to not love You more when I’m seeing how much You are doing in my life now..Jesus Thank You..despite my unfaithfulness and disloyalty..You are forever faithful and Loyal to me..

keep me close to you God..Keep my heart loyal to You despite my emots are running..

hold me tight and neva let me go God..

May you always be the Number 1 priority in my life despite my feelings for "baby" is getting stronger..

You are my God, my 1st love, Jesus..My 1st love..without You, there wouldn’t be daph today..

--butterfly effect..so wish 2tel someone how this butterfly effect applies to me..Thank God that He did not give me up when I almost wanna gave up..

*I’m a snatched back kid in God man..i’m a snatched back kid..judges 6:9