240507-One of the most happening day in my life

“I love my life” this is my new found 4 words of the day and always I would think..

24th may, kinda the last day of PCTE but the 1st day of my work..
Buddy was injured le, she may tear her ligament..believe she was so in pain and fearful when that hap. Wish i could be there but I could only call her. Buddy, sorry I hav competition on sat, cant visit you, mayb sun..act fri which is like today, I may be able to pop by her place, but mayb I will go hm and not join my class as planned as I still have some work that I owe people..buddy will see you soon..

Thursday, such as exciting day..think I was pretty stressed to the extent when I talked to alan abt it in the afternoon when my class was released like 12plus, I was lik verbal diarrhea over the phone.

I was laughing a lot coz think when I’m stressed, I would like to laugh it off..think can be qt a bad thing as I’m like denying my stress and act the opposite..i will do sth abt this weird habit of mine..mayb it’s certain kind of suppression of feelings..mayb I was thinking if I don feel so much I may be able to keep cool a little and be logical minded and do my work..anyway it was qt a day I would say.

Thou it was such a happening day..i cant help but to acknowledge my God is so very extremely good to me..

Even thou I made many mistakes, hah and have many yucky attitudes, God is still very merciful, gracious and faithful to me..
Thank you Jesus..

Wat hap was everyth seems to fall in place just in 1 day..God is good and I’m so blessed with many great and nice people in my life..

These are the things that just kinda fall in place.

#1-Manage to buy tapes from Ronnie. I made the call at about 9plus in the morning, we arranged and he traveled esp to dover mrt to pass me tapes that cost $59 at 3pm after rushing from his mtg and stuff..when I was waiting I was lik, crazy, which bizman will travel to pass client goods that cost so little and mayb his cost of petrol is half of wat I’m paying him..pretty unusual yet I Thank God for such a grace and favour. So amazing how I can call tdy and get the tapes tdy..i think it’s a miracle on my side.

#2- Meng’s call of help. Juz when I was distracted with a lot of thots on helpers at ard 9plus..i was pretty anxious abt it that a miracle call act came.
Dear wan meng, my student juz called at that timing that I almost din wanna pick up coz I don recog the no but I still did thinking in case it’s urgent..Gosh to my pleasant surprise..hahaha..he called to offer to be helper for the ITESC Netball games..he told me he could get his friends to help as well..man..his call is like a huge present dropped from heaven..so kinda manpower side pretty safe now..anyway I only confirm the no of helpers like 7plus in the evening..Miracle again coz on this day that I needed helpers, helpers came,confirmed and I will see them on Mon..I so very Thank God..like another one day miracle.

#3-Umpires are confirmed..gosh, I only got ot talk to Mas like 3plus and when she told me the rate, it was expensive..but I wanna Thank God that at least NS (Netball Singapore) managed to squeeze 4 umpires out on the day when National League is taking place on the same day as well..i worked in NS b4 and I noe how difficult it is to get umpires..so phew..Thank God..my miracle worker..so kinda, on that day ask, on that day confirm umpires and I called Mas at a weird timing of 7plus (ha..i apologise saying I had given her after work “harassment”) haha..so 7plus got approval from Pat to go ahead w engaging the umpires at that rate (total cost 4 umpires = $288..it’s qt a sum) den I proceed to confirm w Mas. Thank God, umpires side..settled.

#4- Official table and Emcee settled..Gosh, I called buddy at 7plus again to confirm allocation of “man” (my ex class boys)power..den thot of sth Zoey and Adda can help at the official table too..hahaha..miracle again..hahaha..so hap that Zoey can tak off on mon so wen I went down to ask them, she was willing to help den dear adda..heee..she will be emcee..hehehe..meaning I can siam the role of an Emcee..hahaha..oversee things mah..ha..i need to give eye power you noe..ha..den music will be contributed by Dawn. And del will help w the playing of music and stuff..
So I wanna Thank God that the manpower issue kinda settled le..phew..lik war fighting but Praise God, victory on the same day is reali graciousness for me..

Act I was pretty drained by the time I was in pammy’s car, she pffer to send me to pasir ris so I can hm frm there..i was basically emotless and expressionless and kept saying in the car “I love my life”..think my students were saying “don look so stressed”..think I do look stress and wen I said I love my life..it’s such an irony..stress look with a “happy”confession..ha..don match..

By the time I reached SK, I was totally drained in a sense..i couldn’t feel anyth..cant feel anyth..mayb I’m too successful at suppressing all my e=mots to the extent that I cant feel anyth..that’s reali scary as alan said but I reali cant feel..think I had acquire this bad manner where I get totally detached from my emot..think my belief is that if I cant feel anyth, den I don feel stress or pain or wateva..i just cant feel..i was praying and stuff, think singing in tongues made me feel slightly beta after a day of war.. so I Ko 11plus sup to last parade but total ko..den wak up this morn and reali Thank God for being so much to me..

Father God, Thank You for being so merciful to me despite my mistakes. Thank you for being so gracious despite I’m so undeserving. Thank you for being so good to me still despite all..thank you for all the miracles for all my needs on Thurs..You are a miracle giving God..i so needed that and I appreciate and Thank you for all that you have done for me and given me.

*God is good despite all circumstances.
*noe y I feel it’s such a miracle day? Imagine how on earth or the possibilities of things falling in place just like that?..Much favour of God and favour of men is needed I think..it’s the smooth flow of things being settled that I reali thank God for..

Thank you Jesus and Holy spirit for making things happened for me once again..

love,
daph