Fri,23rd Mar—People thrive in Praises and encouragement..

Fri,23rd Mar—People thrive in Praises and encouragement..

Yest, 22nd Mar..i felt so very encouraged by Kristy..haha.. coz we attended a sports taping course and throughout the hands-on taping time when I taped her ankle, thumb and knee, she kept praising me that I was very neat in my taping which is good..haha.. that gave me loads of ego food man..haha..even thou she did mention that she was surprised by my neatness coz my table is so messy..haha..but I feel that the praises she gave me had made me confident at least in this one area, sports taping..haha..

So I conclude, people thrive in praises..at least I did..

Hmmm..anoth matter,act I was reali upset last night..i org a cg bdae celebration for Bernard, christine and bavis at a thai restaurant..

Act Kenneth was supposed to help me collect cake and bring to far east plaza..then I don noe wat hap to kenneth but one word he said reali made me flare.. he said he was too ENGROSS telling his sis bf his troubles and he needed some advice..gosh wen I read that msg.. I almost pengz.. I was wondering, do you mean that when you are engross in some conversation that you are able to shrug your responsibility away like that?

I was thinking,” don promise to help wen you cant fulfil it and don crap when you said you are engross in some conversation.. cant you continue aft the dina..” I simply could not understand what could be so troubling that he can act be like so irresponsible in a sense..

I was so very upset coz already I am carrying a big bag with all 3 presents and I was rushing e 3 cards, to touch up in a sense.. I finished abt 6.30pm, rushing to bathe den go out and came his msg telling me last min he cant help..gosh..

But thank God, terence is available to help..if not I wil reali collapse.. act wen I was searching for help, I had a miss call to chris, so wen he called me back, I told him abt the situation and I teared.. I was reali tense.. man..even writing now, can feel my tears coming..i felt that Kenneth was very selfish twds us.. not juz me.. I feel like asking what was he thinking abt wen he said he was ENGROSS in some conversation that he shrug off the responsibility like that.. I was upset also coz I felt that wen I needed his help the most, he’s not here again.. so upset.. gosh..

Anyway, before I am able to write all these now, I act “demanded” an explanation from him this afternoon..i told him I cant accept what he said,having problems.. it made no sense to me.. but after a while, I was thinking, who m I to demand from him? He has his own life to live, own decisions to make, I cannot control him..much as I wan to show him wat are the things I feel is of high value,but if he doesn’t recognize it, everyth will still be the same..so now, in a sense I cant be bother, at least I am not affected emotionally anymore. If he wants to be left alone which is a dangerous thing to do if he wants to be flooded wih guilt or wateva, wat can I do.. think like chris said, gotta pray for him..

and I muz learn to mature in my response as well.. wen I said he is selfish, I don feel any beta too..

*I’m such an imperfect person under God’s amazing grace..