The sharing b4 cg, bel act shared her testimony of how God bless her fiancially and how she came across the book on Jebazz prayer.. 1- God bless us (meaning ALL blessings that He wants to give us), 2-God expand our territory (meaning sphere of influence),3-God's hand to uphold us (meaning God helps us to manage our possession) and lastly, 4-God protects us (to be sheltered from temptations).. man,as bel was shring with us, i can see God moving in bel's life..wen we were outside, bel was "influencing" 4 pp.
I believe God ans her daily prayers coz during cg time, she shared her testimony and she act encouraged everyone in cg to pray the same prayer for their lives and for church..haha.. can you see that she is act influencing TWO cgs of 50 over people now.. haha.. amazing.. bel is alwys such an encouragement to my heart..
Now, on one hand, i'm so proud of bel and on anoth hand, i'm lik asking God " what abt me? i sacrifice too".. haha..(my attitude don seem too right now..now bit envious, bad for emot health)..den God is good again..why.. haha.. coz during sermon, Bro Chris was asking us, " Is God the Denominator of our life where He is "d" reason behind our everything , our every action?.. gosh.. God is moving and moulding my heart again.. i can feel and i know coz i know that God is questioning me, all the things that i have done for Him, like giving bs and stuff..is it truly for Him or for my "self"???
I told pp that i am reali very excited abt the 3 mths leadership by chris.. God is asking me, am i happy and excited bcoz i am abt to receive His Vision or is it bcoz i am receiving a vision for my "self" so that i have something to live for, to run after, to achieve only to satisfy my self-esteem needs coz i alwys wan to prove myself..i needed tp prove myself coz i'm so insecure of myself.. i needed to achieve so that i am secure and confident of myself.. haha..interesting.."reali For God or my self ?"..haha.. God is good! why? coz He is pressing gently into my heart again..i told a few pp abt this.. God is good coz i think all along i am pretty conscious abt this weakness of mine but on that fri night, God is so gracious, He brought this fact into light w/o condeming me of my need to feel secure.. He wants me to see clearly so that when i do serve Him, i will know that is it for Him or for my self?.. Is God the reason behind my words and deeds?
*i love because He 1st loved me..
moi's Sweet Memos
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